“The River Leith” by Leta Blake
*This book was given freely for a fair and honest review by Romance Beckons.
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Title – “The River Leith”
Author – Leta Blake
Memory is everything.
After an injury in the ring, amateur boxer Leith Wenz wakes to discover his most recent memories are three years out of date. Unmoored and struggling to face his new reality, Leith must cope anew with painful revelations about his family. His brother is there to support him, but it’s the unfamiliar face of Zach, a man introduced as his best friend, that provides the calm he craves. Until Zach’s presence begins to stir up feelings Leith can’t explain.
For Zach, being forgotten by his lover is excruciating. He carefully hides the truth from Leith to protect them both from additional pain. His bottled-up turmoil finds release through vlogging, where he confesses his fears and grief to the faceless Internet. But after Leith begins to open up to him, Zach’s choices may come back to haunt him.
Ultimately, Leith must ask his heart the questions memory can no longer answer.
This is only the second book I have read by Blake, but I have to admit this book struck something within me.
I couldn’t imagine the pain feels when Leith wakes up and has no memory of the last three years. Those years to Zach were some of his happiest to hear Leith claim emphatically he is straight. My heart ached.
I found myself looking forward to reading Zach’s vlogs. The emotional outpouring he let go of, I could only imagine his feelings. His frustration, hurt betrayal (yes, it was an accident but when you read the words, you can completely understand why his feelings like that come into play), but most of all his shame.
Shame for missing “his Leith”, shame for taking another man to their bed, but most of all shame do his cowardice and for not being more happy that at least Leith is alive and well.
I found myself yelling at both of them for being stubborn and not speaking their feelings. Zach, hiding their real relationship and Leith, hiding his growing feelings for Zach. Communication could have saved some major pain in the beginning.
I was so excited when Leith allowed his feelings to leed him into back Zach’s arms. But alas life is never that easy.
Leith understandably feels lost. He knows Zach loves him but he wants him to love him for him, not the man he use to be.
Also there is the boxing issue. The thing that almost cost Leith his life and he feels hollow, un-whole without it. What is a man to do but get right back in the saddle.
You want to hit both men at this point. Zach instead of expressing his true feelings to Leith he continues to vlog them to strangers, and Leith, refuses to confess his fears to Zach about them and steam rolls ahead back into boxing.
I feel my heart being pulled into two different directions. I understand both sides but they need to come together to make it work. There walking a fine line. At least Leith is opening up some to his therapist and controlling his anger more.
No matter what though my heart soared because memory or not Leith knows he loves and loved Zach. He accepts it without a second thought. The only time he feels truly safe and comfortable is in Zach’s arms. That has to mean something, right?
Alas, all good things must come to an end. Unfortunately Leith found out about Zach’s one moment of weakness. He went balistic, basically kicking Zach to the curb. I want to cry. If only Leith could find the vlogs and watch them, maybe he would understand where Zach’s state of mind was at and how much he hurts, feels and loves Leith.
Thank god for Leith and Zachs friends Ava and Marian, they decided it was time for Leith to see the true Zach. The Zach that lost everything, the Zach that still loves him enough to be his strength even when he needs a shoulder to lean on.
Leta covered the emotional reunion in such an amazing way. Forcing the two to face life head on in the future and let go of the past to reach the HEA they both deserved.
I am giving this book 4*
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